I don’t feel like
Cutting in a straight line
Following the directions
Or learning how to do it
The right way
*****
I don’t feel like
Answering the phone
Hearing that hesitation
Listening for that voice
Because the payment is late
*****
I don’t feel like
Thinking about food
Handling food
Preparing food
Waiting for people to eat the food
Or even eating the food myself
Because it upsets me
*****
I don’t feel like
Going to the mailbox
Shuffling the paperwork
Dealing with the dollars and cents of it all
Because there is not enough
To go around
Anymore
*****
I don’t feel like
Talking
Pretending
Smiling
Laughing
All the time
Because that is not how I feel
*****
I do feel like
Walking on the beach
Smelling flowers
Sitting under a blanket
With one of my children
Crying
Healing
Forgetting
Petting cats and kittens
Being alone
Not being alone
Giving
And receiving
Because these things
Make me feel
Alive
******
All the things
I don’t feel like doing
And all the things
I do
Make up a life
Of a woman
A mother
And everything else
I am
*****
Interchangeable
Flexible
Manageable
Likes
Dislikes
Life
June 8, 2012
Coventry CT
i can relate to this, bunny, but you put it much more eloquently than i ever could.
sending lots of *Love* & bunches of *sparkly squishy hugs* ♥
I believe that one must do the things they want to do in order to get through the things they don’t want to do . . . . and sometimes they have to play hookie from the have-tos to do the want-tos!
That’s beautiful Joanne.
Thank you.